My Sincerest Apologies

All I wanted was to show you what it felt like to

            let go of these weighty things you bound

            so deeply to your core,

To breathe air so deliciously because you were with me

            and to feel ecstatic about nothing more than

            having a drink and being naked and close.

But like all guarded people the fortress sprang up around your

            heart and the walls around mine came crashing dangerously

            down leaving me in the bitter cold alone and

            feeling rejected, naturally

            (I remind myself how I’ve been through deeper and darker valleys)

I only realized all this just now looking at those great

            big green glassy pools that are your

            eyes seeing that my reflection is really

            nowhere in them

And you are staring through me like I am

            just another fool.

I apologize if all I wanted was

            to fall in love with you.

            I may have been asking for too much

            as I always seem to do.

A thousand forgivenesses please,

            and excuse me while I finish this bottle

            of whiskey.